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A much needed break

Since the beginning of the year I’ve noticed that I’m edgy and quick to get agitated. I started flaming out on people. It felt like I lost the drive in programming. I lost my will to live. I felt used.

Forward a couple of months. I took a break. We went on holiday for a week and I had time to clear my head. A few weeks before I completely stopped working after hours. My day job and after hours contract jobs started clashing. 13 Hours a day, 6 days a week really eats your time and energy.

With more free time started looking in doing different things. My idea was, by getting away from the computer, my inspiration and drive for programming will come back. Funny how things turned out though. I bought myself a Yamaha YZF450 dirt bike and started doing En-duro and off road trips. The adrenaline helped me get my mind off things.

Forward a month or two, I now own a Kawasaki KLR650 and I’m biking again. Can’t wait to do a proper weekend trip. I’m also doing 3D Printing now and we are cutting stickers and vinyl.

I’m only focused on my day job at the moment and the future of the company. Our development stacks seems to be fixed on Go-Lang, React and PostgreSQL. Interestingly with the changes and people leaving, things are better. I’m dealing with less back-end bugs and frustration.

We will see where my development journey leads. Money is not everything and time is precious.


All men’s miseries derive from not being able to sit in a quiet room alone.

Blaise Pascal

I never said, ‘I want to be alone.’ I only said, ‘I want to be left alone.’ There is all the difference.

Greta Garbo

The best part about being alone is that you really don’t have to answer to anybody. You do what you want.

Justin Timberlake

He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words.

Elbert Hubbard

Be the one who nurtures and builds. Be the one who has an understanding and a forgiving heart one who looks for the best in people. Leave people better than you found them.

Marvin J. Ashton

With all the noise, do we really see what’s going on? Does being with someone allow you to see things from a different perspective? Does sharing help? Do people relate or judge? Or do we allow people to manipulate us just to avoid confrontation? Alone the silence might become the monster that slowly climbs out and bites heads off . It can also be turned into the force for powerful and meaningful things.

The schedule of nightmare street

Once a favour, twice the work

Every day short an hour

Slowly creeping in the dark

A schedule from a far.

Code spinning and mind crying

Designing however trying.

In the night whining

Of people defying.

The code grows

It’s all terrifying.